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Though I lived as a monk without reproach, I felt that I was a sinner before God with an extremely disturbed
conscience. I could not believe that he was placated by my satisfaction. I did not love, yes, I hated the righteous God who
punishes sinners, and secretly, if not blasphemously, certainly murmuring greatly, I was angry with God, and said, "As if,
indeed, it is not enough, that miserable sinners, eternally lost through original sin, are crushed by every kind of calamity
by the law of the decalogue, without having God add pain to pain by the gospel and also by the gospel threatening us with
his righteousness and wrath!" Thus I raged with a fierce and troubled conscience. Nevertheless, I beat importunately upon
Paul at that place, most ardently desiring to know what St. Paul wanted.
At last, by the mercy of God, meditating day and night, I gave heed to the context of the words, namely,
"In it the righteousness of God is revealed, as it is written, 'He who through faith is righteous shall live.'" There I began
to understand that the righteousness of God is that by which the righteous lives by a gift of God, namely by faith. And this
is the meaning: the righteousness of God is revealed by the gospel, namely, the passive righteousness with which merciful
God justifies us by faith, as it is written, "He who through faith is righteous shall live." Here I felt that I was altogether
born again and had entered paradise itself through open gates. There a totally other face of the entire Scripture showed itself
to me. Thereupon I ran through the Scripture from memory. I also fount in other terms an analogy, as, the work of God, that
is what God does in us, the power of God, with which he makes us wise, the strenght of God, the salvation of God, the glory
of God.
And I extolled my sweetest word with a love as great as the hatred with which I had before hated the word
"righteousness of God." Thus that place in Paul was for me truly the gate to paradise. Later I read Augustine's The Spirit
and the Letter, where contrary to hope I found that he, too, interpreted God's righteousness in a similar way, as the righteousness
with which God clothes us when he justifies us (Augustine passage included below). Although this was heretofore said imperfectly
and he did not explain all things concerning imputation clearly, it nevertheless was pleasing that God's righteousness with
which we are justified was taught.
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